It has been a week now since I started my residency at Royal Roads. Like many others in my group, I wonder what brought me here. What am I truly seeking? What is seeking me? I do know I want to strengthen my ability to connect filmmaking and the natural environment. Sometimes though, I wonder if maybe I just like suffering? Going back to school at 35 years old! I was convinced enough to pack most of my belongings in my colorful camper and drive my life here.
During our ecopsychology lesson, I was amazed to find how connected I am with nature. My skin was non-existent and the boundary between the environment and I had disappeared. Had I peeled away all my layers, finally naked back to nature? I had become a blank canvas, ready to be painted with idea.
I wonder what has brought the rest of the cohort here? Is there a trait that we all share? Though I can’t be certain, I do feel that we share a strong affinity and a deep sensitivity with the natural environment. When we enter into a meditative state, we become nature. In this fertile state of mind, I planted seeds that will hopefully mature and grow a bountiful garden.
I am still not totally sure why I am here but I know I am ready. I have come a long way since I last finished my geology degree, 12 years ago. My professional and life experience have deepen my understanding of our world. I hold more scars but I grew wiser.
Without knowing precisely why I am here or knowing what effect this program would have on me, I reflected on the emotional qualities and experiences that I have developed since I first graduated from my geology degree twelve years ago. Although I am uncertain what it is I am searching for, I have a strong foundation and am looking forward to the quest.
The following blogs will relate to the graduate program I started in Environmental education and communication at Royal Roads University.